One year ago today…
We left our house not knowing when we’d be back.
We left our house not knowing if we’d ever be back with our baby.
We said goodbye to Katie and Ben, knowing they were in the wonderful care of our dear friends for the coming days but also knowing that in the coming weeks their little lives were going to be turned upside-down.
I labored through the night without any idea of what the morning would bring.
All the questions (Was he going to be born breathing? What was he going to look like? Would I get to hold him or would they need to take him right away? When would I get a chance to see him again?) were about to be answered and it was terrifying.
The moment the doctor told me it was time to push was the scariest moment of my life. It was like I was on a roller coaster and I was at the top, about to go down the first big drop. That was always my least favorite part of the ride. I distinctly remember the overwhelming, simultaneous feelings of dread and anticipation.
At least 15 people were in the room with all kinds of equipment, ready to intervene if he needed it, as John entered the world.
And then we saw him. His beautiful, perfect face. He looked a lot like Katie and Ben. And he wasn’t blue! And I got to hold him! It was such a relief to finally lay eyes on this child we had prayed for.
Didn’t sit still for a minute. He is crawling everywhere and has amazing energy. You could not tell by looking at him that he has a serious heart condition.
Belly laughed when I tickled him. I can’t get enough of his laugh!
Ate and ate and ate! He eats everything we put in front of him.
Was completely entranced by his sister and brother jumping on the couch. They are endlessly fascinating to him. I can already tell that he is eager to join in their fun. It won’t be long!
Totally understood me when I said “No” but looked at me with his big blue eyes, gave me a sly smile and did what he wanted to do anyway.
Rested his head on my shoulder as I sang him to sleep.
Every day with our John Wyatt is a gift but today in particular we are remembering how far he’s come in the past year. We are forever grateful for the Lord’s mercies to our family through this special boy.